the hardest is to let you go...

I just come back home from airport.
I feel so sad ,and I feel like someone ripped out my heart, it's breaking.
I really hate any kind of separations...
All way to the airport I felt like I couldn't breathe and I really fight with my emotions and tried to remind strong as much as I could. I knew for him was also hard , I could see it on his face ,too.
He was hidding behind that amazing smile, like he was tried to be strong for both of us , he still made some jokes too, but mostly whole way to there we remained silent .

I'm really not in the mood to even write this or talk about it.... because all I had in my head is 'I don't want to let him go' ... even if I know we gonna see each outher ,and we are engaged ,we gonna get married too eventually some day... so even knowing all this ,and knowing his feelings,I was sad, I so get used to his presence here everyday,to wake up beside him ,get up beside him ....doing everything toghether ...and now I have to get used to that he is not here again ....
It's really hard. And it's just passed few hours ...

I'm gonna write later... or maybe other day.
now I really can't ...

Rina

day before honey leave...

Even if we pretended all those days ,that this day won't come ever...it actually did....😓
and it seems like it arrived before than we even realized ,seems like we were to occupied with ourselves and didn't pay attention to it .😭😭

We really had a kinda sad start of the day,with lot of cryiing ,but then we decided to go out ,and enjoy the day to the fullest. 😅
First we went to the McD ,because we didn't want to lose time ,we just had to get out of the house soon as possible😬 . After non healthy meals at McD ,we dropped by to take a coffee in Coffeedream (it's not a Starbucks ,but it works for us poor souls in Serbia who still don't have it here😥 ), and we walked towards Kalemegdan ,on way to there ,honey took some pics of the city.💗 While walked with him ,I tried to watch my city with eyes of a tourist,and I kinda liked it...😅
After that we succeed to atleast to catch a moment before the close of the Roman Well ,so honey can see my most favorite hystorical place . And plus it's symbolic ,because it have same name as honey ,too :)
We wanted to go to cinema too and watch Pirates of the Caribbean but it wasn't on the repertoire today ... so I was really dissapointed we didn't succed to watch it ,and we planned it even before honey arrived -.-'  And then since we were in the shopping mall where cinema was anyway... we walked around checking out the stores ... which lead us to shopping ... Honey surprised me with lot of things 💕💖

After all that walking and shopping ,we decided to go back home slowly . After all we wanted to relax a bit more together, and spend nice rest of the night watching movies and just be togheter ,alone 💕💓
that is all from me for now ....

see ya...
xoxo
Rina

Visiting grandma

It was a plan to visit grandma even before ,because I talked about her a lot with my honey ,and I told him how much I love my grandma and howmuch I respect her.
She was actually the first one who knew about honey, at first I told only to her ,because I knew she will be the most optimistic and happy about it ,and I will never forget how she was amazed by honey's smile. She was all like "Oh he is soooo cuteeee,look at his smile ,I already like him!"
So when I told her ,that honey will come in Serbia ,she was so happy, and she immediatly demanded to bring him at her place ,she wanted to meet him.
And well ,we decided to surprise her and to bring happy news to her about our engagement :)

We arrived there around 9 am, because we couldn't get up earlier for the bus at 6 am. My grandma was already at the balcony waiting for us impatiently with our neighbour . When she saw us , she
started to smile ,and come toward us.  I saw on her face that she was truly happy seeing us ,and seeing honey for the first time . I can say that she immediatly accepted him as her grandson-in-law .
She was smilling all the time  ,and  also she said she liked how his hair is naturally black . It's not the secret she loves black hair , and she was happiest when I dyed my hair in really dark black . That is why she got so amazed when she saw honey have really black natural hair...  my grandma so funny . And she all the ime talking soemthing and I had hard time translating her thoughts on English .
Then while we drank coffe my uncle woke up , so after that we sat with him too a little bit ,before he leave for some job to finish . My uncle asked about various things about from which city is from ,how is the weather there ,about his familly ,about his education about joooob....so much hahaha.
But it was okay at the end, as I could figure out I think uncle like him too. There is no reason to not like him ,he is the most charming and kind person ,and there is no need to talk to him lot,you can feel that charisma ,and positive energy from him and just see him smiling ,you catching yourself smiling too and at that point you realizing you enjoy his presence .
after chat with my uncle ,we took a breakfast ,then played a little bit with little kittens and puppy, but it was really hot outside ,so we enter the house after some time ,where I fall asleep in my honey's arms ,and he again took a picture of mee !!!  But I can't hate him because of that ,as long as he enjoy it ,I can't be mad on him ,it's just that I look horrible on those pics .
And after short nap , in meantime my mom arrived there too ,so we take a lunch with her, and again took coffee , and then honeyagain played with puppy, they really get along , it was so funny watching them . I enjoyed. And me as a cat person ,played with little kittens . And that is how time come to go back home , grandma got sada little bit and she said to honey that she expect him to come back soon , and he said he promise he will . And so mom and uncle walked us to the station , and that was all about our little adventure to contryside . There were so much more precious moments there ,but prefere not to reveal everything .
The most important honey had good time there meeting my grandma and uncle and seeing place where I spent some of my summer vaccations as child .
That is all from me  for today .

xoxo.
Rina.

It's official!!!!

Okey .... so this is one of really important things in my life .
One of that happens once in life and which you remembering until the last day of your life .
(unless if you are person who like to get engaged more than once. That is not my stile tho. )
When I was younger ,I always imagined to find someone who will love me for me ,accepting me the way I'm , and not trying to change me ,and not complain about if I mess something up .
My dream come true ,when I met you .
Right in the moment when I thought that I'm lost case ,that I will stay alone forever ,and when I gave up on even looking up for someone, when I was about to most probbably mess up my life,
you appeared like a guardian angel ,to save me.
You bring life and light in my life again and made me smile with simple things everyday since we started talking.
Letter by letter,word by word ,message by message... turn into a looong novels we wrote to eachother everyday ,whole day... until we figure out that we are actually a soulmates ,and a little bit after that we figured out that we falling in love so deeply.
Since that moment ,until now ,and for our future together , I want to say 'THANK YOU' first of all , for all you done for me so far ,for your unconditional and honest love , for understanding me and accepting me . You succed to get to know me for such a short time ,better than those who spend more time with me . That was a sign for me ,that you are worth of my time and love . That is how you won my heart , with honesty and with all that love you gave for us ,for our relationship ,and for me .
I told you so many times ,and I will tell you now again , my heart ,soul and body belongs to you since the moment I realized I'm in love with you . And it will be like that until the day I die.

I never gonna forget the moment and the way how you proposed to me 4 days ago .
You made me the most happy girl on this planet , because it felt so right and I didn't had any doubts or second thoughts ,not even panic . I felt only happines and love. All come from heart.
Maybe you couldn't see on my face ,but you really made me most happiest girl ,and I was really trying to not start to cry of happiness.

And now we just put our love on higher level with this ring .
Date of our engagment and your initials engraved inside of the ring which I'm going to wear proudly until the day of our wedding one day ,and after the wedding of course .
Forever.

It took me so long to write this ,but those are all my honest feelings.
I'm so happy finally after so many failures, and so many disappointments, I finally find love and perfect life companion . 💜
I promise ,I will protect our love forever. 💞
As we said... Eternety.💕

xoxo.💋
Rina

Lunch time with Dad ...

Tonight we really had a great time , actually .👍👍
I must admit I was a bit worried about if honey and dad are going to get along,
and well as I can see well,my dad is more than amazed with honey. 😀😀
The first thing my dad done  he poured the glass of beer to honey ,then I had to jump in and said to dad ,to give me other half of beer left in can .... 😰😰
And the moment I thought we passed that step with alcohol, noooo he took rakija out of somewhere.
Daaaamn....and on top of that he told a whole story how he got drunk with my brothers and his friend ,and how he got nauseous (I'm not going to tell any further than this ) ... So next to beer ,honey got a little glass of rakija to drink . At that point I had to stop my dad ,😲😲😲
or else he would make a mess of my boyfriend ,and I couldn't let that happen .  😵
Olja was also kind ,and really good host as always ,she prepared nice meal for us .
Honey liked it a lot,and most important he ate enough.So even with that he got my dad .💖👍

Really I'm so proud of him ,he really stand all those crazy questions ,and my dad's jokes and sense of humor that not much people understands. 👏💜😅
But at the end we all spoke on English , my dad actually knew some English from before but he didn't use it for a long time so he forgot a lot but BRAVO for attempt dad ,you done it almost great XDXDXD Olja helped him a lot ,and I helped Olja so we succed to communicate and even joke and laughed a lot all together  . 😆😆
After all it was great evening , we had fun ,and definetly planinng to repeat it 👌

xoxo💋
Rina

Steps to future with my love

Today we were a bit lazy to go anywhere ,and we decided to stay at home .
There were few things we wanted to do ,including applying my visa.
But what we didn't expected is that it gonna take us to do that about 4 hours.
Really , people are you serious ,it's a freaking tourist visa ?!😑
Most of the things honey did, because I believe he know what he is doing ,
If I done this ,It would last for 10 days😁😁😁

Meanwhile, I draw a bit on honey's leg ,while he was sweating and thinking about
important things required for application ..

Come on ,say it that I'm a bad girlfriend hahaha
And on top of that I wrote all on my native language ,but he still succed to translate it .
He is my clever boyfriend ,one reason more to love him even more 💕


My mom also come after work to be with us , so we talked a bit ,and I told her about the lamp who broke ,when honey turned it on  , it was funny so I laughed while explained it to mom , so honey and I end up laughing like crazy after all  ,and mom end up confused . 😂😂😂
After some time honey finished with all paper work and he send application.
so now we just have to wait for response . 👍👍👍
And we both are optimistic ( honey is more optimistic ,I'm a bit affraid )
What I know for sure is that I know I love him so much, and I'm really so so in love.💕💕 He is already 7 days now with me here in my appartment, and I feel like we are together for eternity .💘
There is no one who knew me so well and making me laugh all the time , heis the one who not judging me for who am I . 💑💓
What else I can ask more for happines. 🙏


I can't wait for the day when we won't have to worry about the leaving eachother at airports.
💖💖💖We will be together forever 💖💖💖

Lazy overload....

Yesterday was great actually, I was so happy to show off  city to my love ....
and while I done this ,I realized that my city actually do improved....
yeah ,slowly tho....but still not bad...
Since 1999 when everything was ruined after NATO agression, so we are almost healed
(exept we are poisioned with tons of radiation)😒
Anyway ,I'm most happy that my honey enjoyed yesterday,and we had lot of fun out 😛
And since today was really hot, we decided to stay inside...

We have a huge list of movies we made together ,that we want to watch together because those were symbolic this or that way to us 👌 I just hope we are going to succed finish it until he leave 😓😓
So far...we enjoy cold energy drinks ,sweets ,junk food ,and eachother presence 💕💖💗

until next one 💋
xoxo
Rina 😚

First day out with honey

I hide so much things and really didn't want to reveal anything of my personal life so far...
First of all I didn't want to show myself. And especially not my love life. 😐
I didn't want to tell anyone anything about that I found someone really special ,
someone really dear to my heart. Well actually he found me ,but the most important is that we have eachother now . 💕💖
It was really amazing how our story started ,and how we actually started to talk.
But I will keep it secret tho, because it's personal,and I'm selfish to share it 😏
So about my updates, I'm really gonna keep them short 😙
Those were taken today....as you can see ,my dear honey like to take photos of m4 while I sleep (and it's on our first day!😢)
I showed him around the city ,tried my best to remember things about all those historical places (failed) ....and we went to the Zoo ofc, and later to themost romantic place with amazing view where we took this fancy picture 😻

This is our first day, and I feel like I know him whole my life 💝
In loveee like to the MAX ..... and well this is how soulmates feel towards eachother,right ?

xoxo😚
Rina💋